Purple Leaves Wanted to Rant Today

I am not in mood to write second part of driving today.

Having started what others would call an internship for a week, all i can say is that it was a tiring, boring job.

But nevermind, it doesn't matter.

The above title, maybe would be more aptly be written as "wanted to bitch" but that will give a wrong "impression".

nevermind....

all the below just some mindless gibbering.


the good thing bout my this blog is there is very little visitor, so i can bitch all day long and get away with it.

the bad thing is, many "friends" do knew of this blog and i have to refrain.

shit.

the good thing about this blog is even my gf seldom read it (and NEVER read my other blog).

the bad thing is, she do read it some times, so i cannot rant about her either.

the good thing about blogging is in Asia you can finally have a place to freely talk about sex.

the bad thing is, "friends" will ask if your sex life have any problem.

god dammit, do talking about sex means problems?


they say in uni there is no true friends.

yea right..

but wherever u go, there is no true friends either..

how true can one be?

talking behind back?

not dare to face each other?

just simply not liking it?

bullshit..


we all tried..

but to no success..

somehow, maybe its better..

if we give it a pass..


find our own way..

afterall the limit of the sky is not the milky way..

yes, i do miss the grand old days..

but who say they are here to stay?


we all find our way..

as though life's misery is also a mystery..

but no, there is no way..

except to stumble all the way..

and hope you don't get screwed up in a way..


run, Leaves, run..

but all i can do is just fall..

Falling Leaves Outside The Window..

actually that described how i felt all the time..

i am just a godfuckinginsignificant leaf that fell from the tree..

and all i gotta have is some wind to sweep me away..

some ants to eat m away..

decay..


sometime i felt like a dope..

or maybe a Pope..

without God, nor hope..

can u imagine such a Pope?


maybe i am no Pope..

for i am even without a hat to boot..

struggling to life..

maybe its better if i leave..



i dun give a fucking damn..

if all they wanted is to shit..

go to hell!!!!

afterall we all do in the end..


godamnfuckingasshole!!!!!!!!!

Wesak Day Parade

Just an hour ago, when i was driving home, the traffic was diverted and traffic policemen were all around to direct the traffic.

Wait, another demonstration?

They are not wearing black like those in Perak do.

They are not wearing red or yellow.

If fact, all type of colors are there (i mean the clothes).

Nah, it is just a Buddhist parade.

Just what make them go on parading?

Apparently, and this blogger does not know, Wesak Day is approximately in another hour.

Holy shit! and that's why they are parading.

It is a very peaceful parade. you can almost feel the tranquility when they are walking pass, eventhough there must be hundreds of them.

I almost felt like getting down from my car and join them.

Coming Friday, Hopefully I Can Finally Have Peace

Coming friday is the moot and debate club agm....

meaning my last official post....

is going to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hooray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For members of the club, here is the details;

Date : 3/4/09 (friday)

location : DK1

time : 3.00 pm

Do come and see me off....hahahahaha

Fucking Hard Disk Died

First of all, thank you to all whom read/commented/skip my short story. After years of not writing, surely some rustiness crept in.

Some bloke from Canvas Printing said he enjoyed it. Haha. What can be better than someone enjoyed your work?

Juliet said can't wait for more. Hey, are you trying to make me happy? Hehehe..

HB said it will be better if compiled as short story on paper bag. Well, obviously it is not good enough to be in any literary print (duh). But thanks for the honest comment and patience for reading so long a piece. Will try harder to move out of paper bags and get into print. Hahaha.

Anyway, i have never heard of a story on paper bag, maybe i just don't shop as much as i should.


Ok, enough of that. This week had been a bad week for me. Assignments came in like nobody's business and guess what, my fucking hard disk died!!!

At this fucking crucial period when i need my battle proven, efficiency guaranteed, strong and sturdy laptop, one of the most vital component broke down!!!

There goes all my fucking files and photos and songs and documents and materials and most importantly, my productivity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For those whom in a group assignment with me, if i am late, blame my laptop.

Now, not only my hard disk died. The worst news is, the hard disk model no longer in circulation!! What the fuck? It means even if i wanted to change one, i got no one to change to. Damn! Damn! Damn! Why the hell technology have to move so fast? I had only bought this thing three years ago!!! That is only a fucking three years!!!

Suddenly, the whole world came crushing. I am buried in the midst of rubbles in the form of works. Suddenly, i got no connectivity. Suddenly, i am cut out!!! Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So fucked up...Living on a borrowed laptop from Princess Cindy to finish my works and blogs. Damn!!!

Moral values - there can be no moral value in buying a laptop. When i bought this thing at RM 3200++, it was the best in its range. Now, something thrice the performance and specs can be bought at half the price or less. And they might still break in three years.

Fucked up!

i don't understand, i don't know

who remembers...

the time when we slogged together..

but no one remembers...

the names of the faceless..

and the mute..


blood dripped from my tighten grip..

but to no avail..

who am i to say this?

but no, it was not so..

who forgets?

i do not know..

nor do i understand..


i let go..

silly me..

but nevermind..

no one knew how much i can't let go too..

no, no, no...

i don't, too..........

Which Direction Should This Blog Go?

They say, blog, like the blogger, matures with time. With time, it will take its own distinctive form and have its own characteristic.

This is true. My first blog, amethyst boy says... already at its own stride, from being a barely alive blog, now turned into a collection of news from various sources, plus my own commentaries, and editorial. And it attracted a huge traffic there, and finally, someone did commented.

But this blog still in the midst of flowing into nowhere. Intended to be a blog to put my literature, i had a bloody writer's block that had been going on for years and years and i can't even pen a short story. And so, it died a natural death, before even getting started. Since i registered it, i should use it right? Then it turns into my diary but again, it fails because I DON'T WRITE DIARY. How sad how sad.

And so, it became a collection of postings that i felt not suitable for amethyst boy says.. and so it became. But it doesn't feel right. No it did not.

Then, finding passion in food, i try to write food review here and i occasionally still do, but laziness to upload photos get the best of me. Anyway, i joined a food blog group and will review there, though will still do here.

And so, being neither here nor there, where should this blog go? I really don't know. Maybe, just maybe, in the very near future, the road will present itself, but for the time being, this blog, will still be one of no direction.

Waiting for the road to present itself...

This Road, We Chose

This road, we chose,
Where will it ends?

This road, we chose,
Where will it leads to?

This road, we chose,
Is it the road, we should?

I was Thinking

I was thinking...

If the time can be turned back, will i be still making the decision i have made?

If i knew what it had become today, will i still be doing it?

I think, considering me, i will just do what i had done.

Because, that is just me.....

Postman

Those were the days when children will tell aloud, proudly, that their ambition are to be postmen.

Try tell your mom today..

Chances are, she will look at your deeply, and say;

"How are you going to earn money to survive?"

Yup, reality bites.

These days, no parent will want their children to be postman. Nor any child will tell their parent that.

Just for the simple reason of money.

 

But then, do you know how great postmen are?

Lately i went to see a prospecting student. The address is a mess. Even GoogleMaps cannot help. And the direction given by the parent is totally useless.

After some two hours of driving, asking numerous bystanders whom gave conflicting directions, we finally met a postman. He so nicely drew a map for us and gave us some fantastic and easy directions, we finally found the house.

Now, not only is the postman knew his job, but he is exceedingly friendly and this is totally unexpected of Malaysian public and semi-public servants. It does make one wonder how many good postmen are there outside.

For all your good help that probably save my petrol and get me my job, thank you, Mr Postman!

The Meaning of Valentine's

Some say it is a celebration of love..

Some say it is a memorial of a brave heart..

Some say it is for lovers to immerse themselves.

Valentine's, whatever it may be intended for, should bear a wider meaning. It is, for me, a commemoration of Love. A wider Love, encompassing all.

it is for all who Loved..

who loves your families..

who loves your friends...

who loves thy's neighbour..

who loves the animals...

who loves the Nature..

and most importantly, to love yourself...

Valentine's..i thought of my girl..

Valentine's..i am guilty of forgetting my family, for not going back to celebrate my birthday, with the "busy" being brandied (i did am busy).

Valentine's..thank God i learned to love..

For the pitiest is the one who forgot to love and spread love..

Thank God, i still knew of Love..

Though Love i knew of, little it is..

I will continue to learn..

The meaning of Love..

The smaller Love..

and the greater Love..

and Valentine's, brought me the thought of Love..

Love..

Happy Valentine's people!!!

Utter Disgrace!

I thought, as i deservedly so, that i can retire by now. No, some stuck-ups believed that walk-out in the middle of debating the legality of a constitutional change is an appropriate thing to do.

And so, the AGM had to be a hung one and another constitutional change is proposed and another EGM is on and another election will be done.

And that means we will be the caretakers for at least another 3 weeks.

Just why they resort to blackmail is beyond me. Why they have to make it so political is above me. They even top what we did last time. At least we have the guts to stand our ground and agreed for reelection. But saying if there is a reelection the whole batch will not be standing in it again is a blackmail. Walking out when there is no unfairness or inherent bias is just uncalled for. Shame on you, the so called law students.

Utter disgrace.

I am RETIRING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally, i am spending my last days as an office holder in Student Council. My first experience with Student Council dated back to 2 years ago, being the V.P. for the College Student Council in my university. It was, sadly appointed, not elected and i am merely chosen to ensure a nice color mix. Wrong choice i think they made.

From there i gained immense authority and influence but squandered most of it due to my indifference. But when we are under attack, from the college admin no less, i think i did the right thing to initiate a fightback, which is dirty and messy, though we may be on the lesser side, no one party really lost. Which is why i say they chose the wrong person. Another guy/girl might just keep quiet and be timid.

But then, just why do people keep thinking on a racial line? I am NOT there to HELP you yellow-skinned people alone. I am there to serve all residents of the college. Think i did the right thing to just do whatever i think is right. And those who refused to work with people of other color (refers to ALL who does so, not anyone in particular) should just live in an island since in this globalized world, every color, white, black, yellow, brown and especially greenback (that is US dollar) people existed.

But these islanders do exist in mainland (no offense to all who live in the island, just a way of expression with the meaning confined within this post) and all it takes is to have a group of islanders to shout "He Sucks" for someone else to make it an issue and attack you. But all should be taken in stride and pride. For perhaps maybe i do suck sometimes and suckers are to be scorned. Nevertheless, i hold myself clean if the issue centered on helping a segment of people. That is not me so go to hell. And those who have personal problems get on attacking me officially, i hold all your arguments invalid.

Appointed, meaning it is hard to maintain impartiality especially when you have to toe the official line. The appointment does not give your the voice to say "I am ELECTED" to whoever tried to turn you around their little finger. It takes more effort to get what you want but there can be no mistaking where you lean. And when you lean on another side, there goes your ass.

Which might be the reason why all of our asses got burned. But no shit, i think most of us are proud with our services and works and no, we do not take part in your stupid politics and i am enormously proud of it. But being noble just got you attacking us more viciously and dirtily but no we were and still are holding fast to student welfare.

It was through my abilities and popularity that i think got me an overwhelming win in my Faculty Student Council election (yes, elected). And some maneuvers which i intended to bring one change transformed into another when one vital leg gone ineffective and one insider gone awry. That is one horrible mistake i made which i hope will not have repercussion later on.

Nevertheless, this second brush with Student Council brought more successes than the first. We are able to do more for student welfare and advancement though this hard works are often unappreciated. Mind you, we don't get paid or anything so do be nice. There are more to take care of than the demand of a little group of people. If it can be fulfilled, it is already done. If it can't, nothing under our power to do can do it for you. If it is willful neglect or negligence, you may, by all means point it out. But if you are merely trying to find some issues, maybe you should get your brain checked. Don't you have more important things to do than to pick bones? I would rather blogging and reading and making money than picking unimportant bones.

till today, a day before i am due to retire, i am still working; scheduling meetings, trainings etc for another bunch of people. But outside people who knew, we just look very busy to them, for no apparent reason, or for some trivia reasons. Even those whom we helped knew only of that little of we do, and largely not knowing the rest of our works. Not that i really care but can't people be more appreciative of all the free labor that we are doing? No, not to say thank you but perhaps more understanding?

And tomorrow, a few hours before i retire, i still have another meeting to set to ensure things run. And i think, so do the rest of the people. But i do know some are trying very hard to make a ruckus in the AGM. How childish. If those are legitimate grouses, go ahead but experience told us that the AGM often used to pursue personal agenda and some actually having fun created havoc. I rather go home blogging if it is not compulsory for me to attend to present my report for approval.

Have i done well? Of course i can do better but mistakes do happens. Sorry if there is anything bothers you. But as of now, i am enjoying the feeling of going to retire.

=p

Of CNY, CNY Album, Mydin, Reunion etc...

First of all, happy chinese new year!!!!!!!!!!

I had been missing for more than a week on CNY holiday whereby i got no internet connection to blog.

And then my wireless router broke.

What a great way to open a new year!!

The first thing everyone realized is that this year the celebration is rather subdued due to the current economic crisis. In the busiest Sungei Wang Plaza, price reduction is at full force, with many shops opting for a RM 25 all item strategy. In time like this, everyone will have their share cut.

But at this time, many new year song albums got into full force, with two main chinese radio station, 988 and myfm, coming out with their own new year songs album and manage to gain a fantastic sales.

I remember new year songs album used to be the monopoly of NSR with their artist worked only once a year to come out with a smashing new year songs hit. Singers like Luo Bin miraculously only need to work in this one album a year to survive, Ok, maybe not, maybe he had some other jobs too. Just what job he is doing is beyond me (nor do i care!!).

While those albums may have a field day, the same cannot be said of other industries. At least very little are having any CNY ads at all, very different compared to previous years.

When the waist had to be tighten, the purse had to be stringed. So many will throng to the cheapest place and one of them happens to be Mydin. And the photo below tells a thousand words:

Remarkably, the credit card service on that fateful day is down. Luckily we did not buy many.

The most memorable thing for me this CNY is the reunion with my old friends. Everyone now is somebody and everyone had grown. Ji Wen had grown wiser and prettier while Whye Kit i think fatter. Wai Hoe still the loud Wai Hoe but he now converse in grimmer issues of politics, law and current issues. Ash and Yau Fee too had grown wiser and grimmer. Darren still the same Darren but now with tonnes of missiles shoting in his head. Pek Lean still has many to say but little of his heart was poured but, that is him. Jun Huy would be his complete opposite, little to say, lesser to spill. Chin Hoong is now a chemist while the UTM duo Pearly and Mun Keat is still there struggling.

Your truly is still here blogging. He is seriously considering his blogging direction. And future direction. And he is seriously considering throwing shhits at someones faces. Probably not.

Happy New Year Folks. May this year be better than the year before. It can't be worse than last though, so maybe that is something.

Moving through the Motion

Just like leaf that fell to the river, i am flowing together with the current. With every step i take, it is just like moving through the motion, everything pre-written, everything pre-planned. Like there is a rule of engagement, following the procedure, engage, terminate, leave.

Step by step, suddenly felt like a doll. Where and whence shall i whither?

Maybe it's Time To Say Goodbye, which no doubt you will notice it is the song singing behind here. But i am afraid, the leaf had not reach the sea, but a big lake. And stay stationery. Saying goodbye to the tree, that had gone long ago.

Maybe i will reach the sea, where the current will be too strong for me. And drown me. Or if i survive, maybe it will bring me to another island. Where there will be new land. And new breeze.

Maybe, it's time to say goodbye. Though i understand it not. But i felt it, and i knew. The leaf may not know the destination but he certainly know, the current that bore him.

So Much, so much...

so much, so much....
that slipped from our fingers, drifting to the earth...
so much so much...
that kiss our cheek, but flow through the chin...

so much so much...
that is gone forever, yet we let them go not...
so much so much...
we are lost, though we lost the road not...

so much so much...
and yet so little...
where art thou when thee dwelt here?
right in my heart, where thee dwell still?

Why Some do not Acknowledge They had a Grilfriend/Boyfriend

It always leaves a bad taste, when your loved one does not acknowledge you in front of others. He/she refer you as only friend in front of his other friends etc. And you had no choice but to play on.

Just why some are so reluctant to do so, eventhough unlike artiste, their life do not depend on their denial?

The reason may be this - they just not sure of it.

You see, this may due lack of confidence in the relationship, which they wished not many knew of it, thinking of the day they might breakup. Sad but true. In fact, most relationship start this way.

But what if when a relationship had been on sometime? Again the same reason. But in the more cruel way. They might look down on that other half.

They are afraid to bring up this person because they believe they deserved better, either better looking, richer, etc etc. They might want to fish for another while hooking up with this person. They want to preserve their "single" status as long as possible so that they do not miss out any chances. Believe me, once they found a better one, they will be gone faster than you say "wait".

Just what for going out with this type of people?

My Business Plan Got into Top 100!!!!

You see, i am not known for being a businessman but recently, i joined a competition called Nescafe Kickstart with enormous help from BB and XY and my business plan got into top 100!!!

Now, it all come down to voting and hopefully i can get into the next stage.

My business plan is simple, do a healthy food delivery service. Afterall, i had been cooking for years, though that is also not what i am known for (what the hell am i known for then?), hahaha...

So my friends, please do me a favor and vote for me will ya? register as a member and click here to vote for me.

thank you very much!!!!!

In Remembrance of Tsunami Victims

May they found peace, those who are with us, and those who no longer are..

Trip to Penang

after a long, exhausting, unappreciated year of free labor and community service to a bunch of whining and grumbling fools, it is time for some holiday! but even during holiday i must make myself available to answer calls and queries. Pathetic. I solemnly swear that during this remaining year my me not having committed to anything yet to not committing to any free labor and community service. The remaining golden year should be a year for me to enjoy. Hopefully.

so off i go to penang, spending more time in Butterworth than on the island.

People say you go to Penang for the food. I cannot agree more. The bitches, opps, beaches were horrible with the sea water yellow in color! So what else are there to do than to eat?
Penang, here i come!!!!


However, i am not a fan to spicy plus sour food so most of the local delicacies seems out to me.

At the food haven of Jalan Raja Uda, i found out that most of the food are mediocre. They are of normal taste, meaning they are very much edible. The good news, however, is a serving only cost you RM 2.50/3.00. The bad news is, it is so small that you have to order two or more serving to satisfy your stomach. but then again, if you wanna try some variety of food, the minuscule serving serves you best.

The foods, of course, there will be a few reviews later. So we shall go to some places of interest then.
this at around Queens Bay Mall

There are a few places, first of all the war museum. However, it cost RM 15 per entry and that was deemed too much so we gave it a miss. So do a bird park on the mainland. And obviously, it was given a miss.

Then there is this Kek Lok Si Temple, an over commercialized temple. Quite a sight, with all the tourists' money gushing in.

I think the best place to be in Penang is the Toy Museum. With so many toys around, that is the place to go, with only RM 10 per entry. However, the owner seems to be not liking teddy bear so much, having only a few in it.

this kinda small museum is touted as world largest....
i am spiderman....almost...
grrrrrr.................... wow.............

Oh yea, there is an AutoCity lying around on the mainland. AutoCity is primarily a place to be if you happen to be buying a car. But some brilliant guys had some brilliant idea to transform it into a happening area with all the eateries and clubbing joints there. So spend your day choosing a car, then unwind by having a few pints of beers and a dance there. Oh by the way, there is few boutiques with nice clothes such as a stall called Imei and another place where branded items are sold cheap. And every weekend, AutoCity transformed into a fashion haven. Have a look when you go there!
this thing from the weekend AutoCity fashion pasar malam
this from Imei

The Pesta Penang? Totally forgettable. To hell with it. Just don't know why people plunged there every night causing the bridge to jam. Maybe they see something i don't. No offense.

Penang by and large is a good place to be. People are, well, Penangites. And all Malaysian road users suck. Seen enough from KL to Penang, all around North-South Highway. Crazy drivers, crazy rider, even pedestrians suck.

one of the sucker is this double parking bitch

I am Back!!! Merry Christmas!!!!

First of all, Merry Christmas......

I am freaking tired, traveling here and there, barely having any time for rest.

People, merry christmas and see u soon...