Maybe its Better if We had Never Meet Again

drenched..

wat can i do?

london has always been in love with the Rain..

embarking on an early flight..

containing the yawn, i forced..

just for a chance to meet you again..

found the red stall..

that we’re suppose to meet…

but those days just didn’t come back..

such a strong personality…

had long been tainted…

who hadn’t change for a living?

such a longing to meet

but to a jolt of realization..

and the ten years in between..

the smile that i missed so much..

left only in memories..

not even knowing, how to converse again…

just like me who hadn’t started to smoke last time..

how had you changed, i know not..

just like a hundred years of waiting

only to wake up..

even were to meet again..

would it be a mature performance?

wasn’t it better if we hadn’t meet again…?

I still remember

i still remember, the days we laughed together...

and still remember, the days we cried together...

i still remember, when we just stood in the rain, looking into each others' souls.....


those were the days, gone far away...

those were the days, that will never come back...

those were the days, etched only in memories....


maybe, not really...

maybe, it is just an illusion...

maybe, the rains are just the dreams, spilled into realities, clouded my vision....


no, i won't cry....

for tears no longer suffice...

no, i won't regret....

for regret can only make scars deeper....


i will, i really will...

keep the memories inside, deep inside....

that long ago, i had you....

but that you, had gone, and i can find you not....

We are Not as Close Anymore

Remember reading a blog post by a friend - We are not as close anymore. Wondering if friendship is bound to not last.

As time goes on, we outgrew each other, and that is normal. But what if, one day, out of sudden, we are like strangers? That would be sad right?

For what? Love can make you hate someone immediately. And that is understandable. But friendship?

If yesterday was cool but today screw, why and why? Why oh why?

If today is screwed, tomorrow be enemy?

We are not as close anymore, nor do we like what we used to be. We both had another set of groups now, or is it you?

We are not as close anymore, maybe something happened and i had not understand it yet. For we don't talk anymore, and i never knew what you are thinking.

We are not as close anymore, nor do i remember the last time we sat together. For they are so far away, and i recollect them not.

We are not as close anymore, maybe we are just not meant to be. Maybe just like a river diverge, that is what we are meant to be.

We are not as close anymore, nor do i see your face any longer. It no longer appears, or maybe, it just never did....

Of CNY, CNY Album, Mydin, Reunion etc...

First of all, happy chinese new year!!!!!!!!!!

I had been missing for more than a week on CNY holiday whereby i got no internet connection to blog.

And then my wireless router broke.

What a great way to open a new year!!

The first thing everyone realized is that this year the celebration is rather subdued due to the current economic crisis. In the busiest Sungei Wang Plaza, price reduction is at full force, with many shops opting for a RM 25 all item strategy. In time like this, everyone will have their share cut.

But at this time, many new year song albums got into full force, with two main chinese radio station, 988 and myfm, coming out with their own new year songs album and manage to gain a fantastic sales.

I remember new year songs album used to be the monopoly of NSR with their artist worked only once a year to come out with a smashing new year songs hit. Singers like Luo Bin miraculously only need to work in this one album a year to survive, Ok, maybe not, maybe he had some other jobs too. Just what job he is doing is beyond me (nor do i care!!).

While those albums may have a field day, the same cannot be said of other industries. At least very little are having any CNY ads at all, very different compared to previous years.

When the waist had to be tighten, the purse had to be stringed. So many will throng to the cheapest place and one of them happens to be Mydin. And the photo below tells a thousand words:

Remarkably, the credit card service on that fateful day is down. Luckily we did not buy many.

The most memorable thing for me this CNY is the reunion with my old friends. Everyone now is somebody and everyone had grown. Ji Wen had grown wiser and prettier while Whye Kit i think fatter. Wai Hoe still the loud Wai Hoe but he now converse in grimmer issues of politics, law and current issues. Ash and Yau Fee too had grown wiser and grimmer. Darren still the same Darren but now with tonnes of missiles shoting in his head. Pek Lean still has many to say but little of his heart was poured but, that is him. Jun Huy would be his complete opposite, little to say, lesser to spill. Chin Hoong is now a chemist while the UTM duo Pearly and Mun Keat is still there struggling.

Your truly is still here blogging. He is seriously considering his blogging direction. And future direction. And he is seriously considering throwing shhits at someones faces. Probably not.

Happy New Year Folks. May this year be better than the year before. It can't be worse than last though, so maybe that is something.

Don't you know you are being used?

i wonder, are you dumb or stupid?

when someone come to you when she needs you, and dump you aside whenever she thinks fit, why are you still taking her as your buddy?

and when someone else try to tell you you are being used, why not you ponder about it?

weird weird weird.

maybe i am stupid for trying to protect you.

afterall you don't even bother.